敲门声。。。怕 + 等待。。。

最近，不知为什么特别多人敲门。。。

之前，没那么注意到，自从某天，一个人在家时，在看着鬼戏，光天化日，应该没什么问题的。。。怎知道，还是有点怕怕，突然间，有人敲门。。这地区的屋子不习惯有门铃，所以大多都是直接敲在木门板上，或是门中间的信箱口，就会听到很大声的“砰砰”。。。不用说，我当然被吓到咯。。因为从没有人这样大力的敲门，而且是敲到很急的，我就赶快跑下楼。跑到一半，我停了下来，因为真的很恐怖，我从门中间的玻璃看过去，是一位黑肤色的女人，她还在敲，又用耳朵听屋里的声音（外面看不到屋里）。。她还告诉身边的人，“I heard someone just now!” 我不敢开门，因为不认识，敲门又敲到像要打架酱，最后她走了。

晚上，又有人敲门。。。这次我朋友回来了，他问清楚了才开门，原来是隔壁的邻居，她说我们有包裹，帮我们签收了。。。就是我姐姐寄来的神秘小蛋糕。。。哈哈！

这几天也是一直听到敲门声，都在注意着，因为我姐要送我毕业+生日礼物 = 相机。。还没到叻，不知道失踪去哪里了，唉！！！我们都在怪Amazon.uk。。。希望在我回去前就寄到来啦。。。我的粉红相机呢？？！！

Edinburgh trip...

The very first time, I travel alone...I been sing k, watch movie, shopping alone, but I never imagined that I will and I already travel alone to Edinburgh on 14th Oct (10.15pm coach from Liverpool), reached there around 7.15am morning on 15th Oct. It was so cold that morning, windy and I can saw the "gas" from my mouth when I breath...I was wearing 3 layers of long sleeves, with my scarf...Still, I was very very super duper cold..It was only 8 celcius...I cannot stand the coldness anymore, after I found the right way from the coach station to the city, and I saw the information centre but it opened at 9pm. So, I went into the McD which was only opposite road of the info centre...I ordered a bacon bread (if i'm not mistaken with the name) and cup of cappucino as my breakfast...It was wonderful, because I was freezing and my hand was so cold, it was perfect to drink a hot cappucino to warm my stomuch...

*my warm breakfast..nice oh..and the bacon bread, I never tried at Malaysia before*

*my lovely cappucino*

Then I started went around while waiting the info centre to open. Edinburgh is quite nice and was busy as well..the buildings here is quite nice..There are "old" town and "new" town...After the info centre opened, I baught the Highland one day tour ticket, which was at the next day 16th Oct, from 8am to 8.30pm. It is seems like a long journey, coz using the whole day, but my friends recommend me to take part, so...Then, I asked for the ghost tour ticket as well..."Ghost Tour", is very famous in Edinburgh (based on one of my lecturer, Ned)...and it is like the people will guide and bring you around the town, telling you might be ghost, history, scary story of the town...I liked this tour when I heard it, coz I think it is quite interesting, not like normally we went into ghost house and scared by those "ghost"...But, because I was going to take part alone, so, I was scared as well...I asked the girl to choose for me, from the several tours, I want a not really too scary one...and I baught a ticket for the ghost tour...It was at night 7pm. So, I have plenty of time, I went to the Edinburgh castle first...

*I asked the worker of the castle to take picture for me - entrance of castle*

*views of the city - took inside the castle*

Due to Edinburgh castle is located on the hill of the city, so visitors can see many beautiful scenery from here...definitely, it is cold like hell...coz windy that day, and a bit raining in the noon. There are 25 different locations in the castle to visit such as prisons of war, one o'clock gun, Royal palace and so on...

*one of the location signboard*

The most famous thing in the palace is one o'clock gun. This is a cannon which will fire everyday at one o'clock - 1pm. From the history that I read in the exhibition of this cannon, it's previously people used to know what is the time..

*This is the one o'clock gun...and you can see there is a clock beside the cannon*

After finished waiting until 1pm for the fire, I went out and heading towards the city centre...I went to a shop which can saw how the people make tartan mill..its something like this..

*I duno what its called, but its famous in Soctland, and expensive too...*

*Scottish dress code (sth like this)*

After finished visit the shop, I walked around and baught some Scotland short bread, which is famous here as well...Then my lunch settle at Subway (my favourite)...and I ate Italian BMT meal, I never tried 12 inch footlong de, wish I eat once...then I asked the cashier, he said, 12 inch is same price as 6 inch for this meal...aiseh...kalau tahu, I order the long one lor...cheh!!! After finished, I went back to hostel which nearby the city and take a rest and bath before going to the ghost tour. The ghost tour was quite interesting actually, coz the tour guide, bring us walked around the city and told us about the history of those places and then we went to the underground...which he said last time there is a person named Wally, and his friends tried to korek an underground from castle to the palace...something like this...and then it was not successful and he disappeared in the underground...and the story was long...I can't tell all here, and he also can't tell the whole story, so better check history book lor...It was not so scary actually, but just a bit dark, and it was cold..coz at nite, windy as well, and that day was specially cold...not same as Liverpool...

16th Oct...Highland tour

This tour was very nice and bring us to the highland and it is very beautiful...but my camera battery not enough, coz duno when and where I lost one battery...aih...so I continue took picture with my mobile...

*This is famous Scotland Highland bull...means their kind of cow*

Then we went to Urquhart Castle, which located on the highland...It was nice, even it had damaged...

*This is only half of the Urquhart Castle*


*Behind me is another half (I was wearing 5 layers of shirts that day..coz scared cold)*

*inside the castle*

After finished, we ride on a cruise which we were sailed on the Loch Ness...It is famous in Scotland..it is a lake, which last time, some people accidentally took photo of "monster" on this lake and now, they said if anyone able to take similar photos or monster appear on the lake, there will be a reward...

*This is Loch Ness*

*I'm on the cruise*

*This is the "monster"*

The whole trip was something like that, coz the highland trip mostly was taking the beautiful scenery photos...There are still some little story...but not able to finish in one post..so...i post another one when i free la..haha..

说好的幸福呢...

Another Jay's new song from his new album: 说好的幸福呢

I lagi prefer this song...this song is very sad...meaningful as well!!! he is brilliant!!!very got feeling when I listen to this song...sorry to say that, really make me remember the past...





你的绘画凌乱着. 在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽. 甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯. 我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌. 假装没事了.
时间过了走了. 爱情面临选择.
你冷了 倦了 我哭了.
一开始的不快乐. 你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的懂了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.
我都还记得 你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐

你的绘画凌乱着. 在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽. 甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯. 我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌. 假装没事了.
时间过了走了. 爱情面临选择.
你冷了 却了 我哭了.
一开始的不快乐. 你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的懂了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐


怎麽了. 你累了. 说好的. 幸福呐.
我懂了. 不说了. 爱淡了. 梦淹了.
我都还记得.
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐 !

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This song is so sad...the promise...can't let people forget...
I like this sentence --> 只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着. 要怎么停呐 --- sometimes its hard to forget..
but luckily my friend, Marvin told me, "cannot stop the music box mah take out the battery lor!" haha..thx..this remind me..anything also has its solution, just see how you find out and when you find out the key of the solution...So, Marvin and Piu..add oil..u guys just need time as well..there will be the way...(u know what i mean)!!!

I still have to praise JAY..my favourite singer..his song..meaningful and nice..!!!this song is recommended by me oh!!hehe...(definitely, many other of his fans or those who listened before! really...i saw their comments online)

给我一首歌的时间。。。

Jay's new song: 女儿红 / 给我一首歌的时间

雨停下的天空. 灰的更加老旧.
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手.
我晒干了承诺. 灰的更加懵懂.
就算做事做错也只是怕错过
在一起走. 分开了走.
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛.
你若退后. 我能承受.
在最后的出口. 在爱过哪儿才有.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远.
在我的怀里. 不用太多失眠.
如果你想忘记我也能适应.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
把故事听到最后才说再见.
你送我的眼泪. 让他留在雨天.
如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷...

被淋湿的天空. 灰的更加老旧.
你说你不懂我为何在这时牵手
我晒干了承诺. 灰的狠冲动
就算做事做错也只是怕错过
在一起走. 分开了走.
是不是说没有做完的梦最痛.
你若退后. 我能承受.
在最后的出口. 在爱过哪儿才有.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远.
在我的怀里. 不用太多失眠.
如果你想忘记我也能适应.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
把歌词听到最后再说再见.
你送我的眼泪. 让他留在雨天
.如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷...

你说我不该不该不该在这时候说了我爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有说谎的力气.
请告诉我.而暂停算不算放弃.
我只有那一天的回忆...
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远.
在我的怀里. 不用太多失眠.
如果你想忘记我也能适应.
能不能给我一首歌的时间.
哦.把歌词听到最后再说再见.
你送我的眼泪. 让他留在雨天.
哦.如果你怀疑一心的依然勇气当作鄙夷...

(rap)
你说过我不该.在这时说爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有力气.
可是暂停却算不算放弃.
我说我不该不该. 不该在这时才说爱你.
要怎麽证明我没有力气.
我只有一天回忆
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**I duno whether the whole lyrics is 100% correct or not..coz the album haven't released, but going to...I'll update it when I know the correct lyrics...and the song's name as well...**

I like this song, because of its meaningful lyrics...have to grab the right timing...and appreciate...

"是不是说没有做完的梦最痛" ---
很多人都觉得/自然的认为，得不到的都是最好的！我也不例外。。偶尔，我也会这么想。。但，有位朋友告诉我，空想是没用的，不够的，真的爱一个人，是应该用行动来证明。如果真的爱一个人，就要好好地把握，不要让自己或对方留下遗憾！！加油。。。得不到的，也不要气馁，只是时机还没到，也许对的人，还没出现也不定。。如果真的认定了，无论多辛苦，都要把握！！！

London ExHaUsTeD trip...keke @.@

Yesterday I was "exhausted"!!!

HAHA...yala..not so exaggerate lar..tired lor...Juz came back from London...was going to US embassy to interview, but failed d...

The trip was sooooo "messy"...I almost lost in London..I can't find the embassy..and I also almost lost when I wanna find the London China Town...

Now only I know cannot 100% fully trust the "G--gle map" coz I follow the map and its far away from the underground station I stopped by...Then I try to walked by myself without asking anyone..just following the map, even I know my "direction" always "very good" de...but I think the map is correct one, mah follow lor...then I really cannot find, and it's getting late already..no choice, I mah asked people there lor..I asked liao few..all also told me, it is far from where I am...I have to keep walking...and continue asked people...wa lau eh...

I walked liao around 15 minutes, I asked another girl and guy, then they said, I should take tube to another station, it will be nearer from where I am...That time almost 12.45pm already, my appointment was 1.30pm, its better to reach there b4 half an hour. Then I started to nervous liao, I straight away asked the taxi driver on the road side...he said can reach there 5 minutes, then I asked him to fetch me to the embassy...Finally, I reached there d..it's really fast..and no need 5 minutes like tat dah sampai, hv to pay 3.20 pounds...kelian~~

Then reach there already, I look at the building opposite the taxi, full of flags, British and US flags, I tot is the embassy, then I looked at the building like the face telling people "Finally I reached already!!!"..then itu taxi driver open the car window and told me, "The US embassy is in front that building, NOT this one!"..wa lau eh, so pai se...!!!then I said thank you and faster walked to THAT building lor...aiseh..@.@

There were many people line up there..the after went inside only know we still have to take number de, not like straight away can interview. And its interview, is FAR from my imagination..I thought will go inside a room or what to interview by the officer, but it is just like normal window booth, like we go bank counter...za dao!!!!!!!



then I have to wait around 200++ people only until my turn according to that number..I really crazy waiting there...so wu liao and sleepy...I waited until 4pm sth only called my number, then I went to the counter, not more than 5 minutes already kena reject...I also duno how to argue with him..saying I dun think that was a reason or what..I just said "oh...oh..oh!!!"

then I desperately wanna eat chinese food..thought of going to China Town can eat a chinese food before going to coach station coz the bus was 6.30pm depart...mana tau nearly 5pm already when I came out from the embassy, and I just sempat buy few breads from the Kowloon restaurant...then I have to rush back to the coach station before 6.30pm...whole day only rushing and find the correct direction..so hor..use many of my brain cells...hehehe...so I very tired lor..Lagi before I went to interview that nite, I cannot sleep ler...whole nite din sleep..until the early morning when I'm on the bus only I sleep... the guy sit beside me, he so sien...he wanna talked to me de..but i dun wan "choi" him, I just sleep oni..(tired mah)..then when i wake up a while, he quickly talked to me...aiyo..ask me where i go la..blah blah blah...then finish d..i continue sleep..hahahaha...second time oso like tis..then when i continue sleep..he talked to the aunties behind us...hehehehehe!!!



actually long story lar..but I am fine woh...so..for itu wang pau kit, no need feel sorry coz I m not getting the visa..also not ur fault, not u reject me de, ok?!! but, u can happy for one thing, at least now i won't bomb ur kitchen d mah..haha!!!

when I planning to back Malaysia ler..???hmm...still thinking...I planned to back after Halloween de..never experience before mah..but I lagi greedy now oh...I wish I can wait until November, hope I can see and feel the snow before I go back..I really wanna see snow ler..but duno it will snow so soon onot...aih...

UpDaTe NEWS!!!!!!

*Paris*

Erm...long time din write a proper post...lazy d...

after my Europe trip, thought I will upload some photos and also describe a bit about the trip...but haha..long time d..okla..wait i got mood 1st lar...

Now i am living in Kensington, Liverpool..most of my friends, I think may be all also back to Malaysia already..I still have to wait for the US embassy interview to try to get US visa, so that I can go US to visit my sister..but if i fail to get the visa, no big deal for me..i will back Malaysia lor..actually quite miss Malaysia...as old people always said, "when you come out, only you know what is good and best for you!"..I think its true...i will remember my "messy" room with Jay's posters and my own bed, my naughty brother -- "botani", my fei fei d de big sis (coz always talk non-sense), my always serious and "loud speaker" de big brother, my US sis -- "google king", my dad, grandpa and grandma...always make me angry de mimi..also three 3 8 de cousins, my aunt...my Kajang friends, KTAR friends...

aih..if really wanna list out..a long list pulak...but here de weather hor..really getting cold d..now always windy and sometimes raining, then suddenly sunny day..but because of windy, it is very cold when I go out...the wind blow until my ears pain...so kesian...i think Malaysia wont be like tis..my friends that juz went back to Malaysia from here, complained Malaysia is too hot for them..haha....actually i very scare cold..duno after come here, got help me to build my immune system become stronger, so I wont scare cold when I go back to Malaysia...

I hope whole day I can sleep on the bed with two blankets cover me...ahhh...so cold...

today I wear 3 long sleeves when I went to city centre..but still cold when the wind blows..forget to bring my gloves..aiks..I must bring next time...my finger cold until hard to move...

Malaysia foods are waiting for me..i know...---nasi lemak, har mee, wat dan hor, fuk kin min, sushi king (i know is not malaysia food, but i love very much), my grandma's soup, my neighbour -- sam sou's chili, sambal, wangsa de hot and spicy mee, and so on so on...argh...air liur pun mau keluar..here mau makan hot food pun susah..especially with soup one..except I cook myself lor...but i came here liao, paling pandai de (after I learn and experience) is tom yam nasi goreng (lagi the tom yam taste is from the paste tat I baught..hehe) or normal nasi goreng oni...err..telur goreng, lagi ape arr...normal goreng sayur lor...yah..i say i wanna learn cook porridge..not yet try b4..mau try if got chance..

if i got chance go US, hehe..wang pau kit...ur kitchen..haha..is MINE..wahaha..then i everyday try new thing..bomb ur kitchen..haha..remember buy insurance woh..blek...!!!!!

-boring at home now...and raining outside..aih-

人，最可怕。。。

很多人都以为，鬼很可怕。。可是，人，才是世界上最可怕的东西。。。

之前，我去过一个在 Liverpool 的博物馆，其中有一个部分，是展览很多野生动物。。我和朋友看到有一盒箱子，上面写着：“你敢打开吗？里面是世界上最恐怖的动物！”结果我们没有勇气打开，使那里的工作人员帮我们打开的，里面放着一面镜子。。

当一个人生气时，居然可以做或说出平时你预料不到的事情，而这些事情，也许对他来说不怎么样，可是却足以令人伤心，害怕。。。

“对不起”，也许已经不重要了，要怎么才能重拾之前的信任？！

在外地旅行，是很开心，大开眼界，至少在投入工作前放任自己去玩，你以为没有想家吗？你以为每件事情你都懂吗？你以为一定每天都很开心吗？听了你说那番话，更让我伤心，“你以为每个人好像你每天去旅行，走街。。？”

又说我想多了。。？你再仔细想想。。开心时，当然也有难过的时候！！！你又了解吗？

发现原来你以为很了解一个人的时候，其实并没有，因为人是善变的，你会更加伤心。。。

虽然外面天晴，但，心情却像突然来了暴风雨般的。。